Having Babies

I wonder how dads feel during the whole thing. Do you feel completely powerless and out of control? There are times when having a baby that you feel like it's happening to you and not something you're doing. People are running around, somebody is yelling for you to push, and so on. It's kinda crazy. I remember laying there at about 8 p.m. after nearly two days of contractions and my CNM checked me and said, "We're not going to have a baby tonight." Then at 8:30 I felt different. I can't explain what it was I felt, just different. So I called her back and she checked, and said, "Wow! It's time to rock and roll, Ladybug." And suddenly, the ceiling opened and a big light came down, and they hit some button on my bed and it transformed into some kind of birthing chair, and the room filled up with people running around like I don't know what, and my mother and husband were suiting up in blue suits, and I was just thinking, "damn, what's going on in here??"