No one would go through what they did... this doesn't even include all the early church being killed horribly by Nero.... unless he is real. Would you.
Many people have given their lives in support of whatever religious beliefs they'd adopted. You're old enough to remember Jonestown, Heaven's Gate, and the Branch Davidians.
In fact, I'd say anybody harping on end-times prophecy is demonstrating the signs of vulnerability to be steered to their doom.
I'm sincere when I say that I wish you'd reconsider the beliefs you are submitting to. Maybe you just got sucked in too deep and have lost all perspective? There are religion recovery support groups online and no matter where you live, you should have access to counselors.
I'm really not trying to pick on you and I absolutely realize this is almost certainly futile, but I think you are a well meaning guy who has been manipulated into embracing a damaging set of beliefs. I sincerely hope you find a way out of this.