Suicidal thoughts?

I started dealing with terrible anxiety in 2004. I didn't really know what it was, and I had a negative, ignorant, immature opinion of mental disease. As time went on, it would get worse, and bring me to some dark places mentally. Did I have them? Sure. But it was always the thought that I would do something irrational, like I wouldn't be in control of my actions. I came to grips that I was suffering with mental illness, that it was legit and nothing to be ashamed of. I got on some meds and they helped immensely. I'm still on them today, and while I do still get bouts of anxiety, I don't go into a downward spiral into dark places. If you're really asking for yourself, then get help. If asking for someone else, advise them to get help. It's worth it.