I have a suspicion that whatever they're ultimately able to salvage will be anticlimactic anyway. We want a page to say, "Yes, I did it and here's why I did it" and it won't. That would require him to have had some understanding into his own psyche and he didn't have any. He was worried about being polite to authority figures and sitting criss cross applesauce and not drinking out of plastic bottles and castigating litterers. He had no clue how to moderate his own selfish emotions and feelings into empathy or concern for others in a way that would prevent him from KILLING HIS OWN GIRLFRIEND. My heart wants a reason, my head tells me no way he suddenly had an epiphany before he laid down to die to put down in words something that would give anyone any kind of understanding. So good riddance.