Im 35 years old and live with my 81 year old grandmother

When I was 35, I was an alcoholic who wasn’t allowed to speak to his wife or kids. Suffice it to say my life is a lot better at 45.

Who you were isn’t who you are, and who you are isn’t who you are going to be.

Finding people is hard. Everybody is self conscious and has feelings of inadequacy and self doubt. Having those feelings doesn’t alienate you from everybody; it makes you normal. Just be yourself. Genuineness is attractive.

As an aside, I bet your gran is a lovely lady and you should be proud to help and live with her. Most cultures look at taking care of their elders as a privilege; not a burden. If I was a single person I would find that type of loyalty attractive.