Im 35 years old and live with my 81 year old grandmother
Be grateful that you have family that can help you out during these tough times. We all need a little help now and then.
Formulate a plan to start getting back on your feet while helping your Grandmother. With the economy the way it is right now, it will be challenging. But it should give you something to focus on and strive for.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with needing help and/or asking for help when you’ve run out of options.
Learn from the past, but don’t live in it.