For the 2nd time in my life I am starting over. Back in 2000-2001 I lost everything due to an illness that paralyzed me and messed up my memory. Fortunately my folks were there to help me
In the past few years I have had some severe injuries due to car wrecks that weren't my fault, covid killed my business, and my wife has left me so I am starting over yet again at 46 years old. Things were pretty bad for awhile for me mentally
Don't feel alone....more of us have gone thru similar than you realize. You aren't a loser...sounds like you have a good plan going and you are giving as much as you are getting.
I got going again by focusing on making myself a better person because I needed to feel good about me again and also started doing some volunteer work. Just started dating again and I will have another business of my own. The alternative was to stay depressed and miserable
You'll get there