Im 35 years old and live with my 81 year old grandmother

30-something-year-old me would probably agree with you. "Slightly" older me says, Eh, I have a different perspective now.

And that's the problem we have at every age we attain, right? If only I had known this when I was 10. 20. 30. When I was in high school, before I got married, et cetera, et cetera.
One of my first emails addresses ended with ‘36’ which corresponded to a significant Chinese zodiac date - I made that address in my early 30s figuring 36 would be more than enough time to start on wife/family.
In reality 36 wasn’t even a speed bump and I didn’t start family until I was nearly 40