I know that it can be better because it was and is, for others. I hang around to see if it gets better again. I doubt it, but it doesn't hurt too much to find out.
Yeah, im not going to check out on purpose... I am still a parent. For them I am going to put effort into living and even self-improvement.
There are just some things broken, that will allways be broken. I thought it would pass and forward momentum would bring new hope... but I have come to a point where I have acknowledged, with zero doubt, that the high water mark of my life is behind me.