Dating
Oh I love the shirt out of her - always have. We're both here, both willing to work on it. Not being alone is not the main reason why I'm here, willing to put in the work needed.
I'm no psychologist, but it seems to me that you're more motivated by the fear of being alone (which is understandable) than by love. You say you love her, but the main reason you're willing to put in the work is to keep from being alone. I think that if you were truly operating out of love, the "not being alone" part would've been left out altogether.
Anyway, I haven't posted in a while (to put it lightly), but this thread has been really interesting to read. So, I feel inclined to contribute. I wish I could add something spicy but I can't lol! I just turned 36 last month and the last date I went on was last year with a chick I met on Instagram :ROFLMAO:. It's my fault though, because outside of a few trips I went on, I didn't really go out a ton. I'm looking to change that this year.
I used to be on several dating apps, but I'm only on one now (Hinge). I'm at that place where all of the women who like me, I don't like, and the ones I do like, don't like me. So, that's been mostly miss instead of hit. In the real world, all of my closest friends are either married, or are in serious relationships, so they don't really know any single women who may be interested. I work remotely, so no chance of meeting women there. While a couple of hobbies put me in situations where I'm around women, it's not long enough to make any kind of connections. It's been a struggle for those reasons, but I'm at a place in my life where I'm not pressed about it. If something happens, cool, if not, I'm perfectly content with being in my own company.