It's even worse when you find out she wanted to settle things down after they had a kid and he basically browbeat her into allowing an open relationship so he could gallivant around the world forking everything that moved.
Also when he ditched her and the kid during covid. They were in New Zealand, I think, and he used his celebrity connections to get himself back to the UK at a time when nobody was doing that. He straight up ditched them.
Finding out someone you legitimately once admired is basically a human trash factory definetly sucks.