so, for the last few years, my bff has been there whenever i need to talk to. well, knowing she has substance issues, i've never pushed her, i can't forgive myself for not, and it is no surprise she admitted herself into rehab. what sucks is that i rely on her for a lot, especially the last few years, even more so from a year ago, and i can't talk to except once a week for 10 mins, no in-person visits. 2 weeks left, but it feels like 10 years.
just had to, vent? i'm just angry lately and i'm exhausted. so, back on valium. thankfully i rarely drink anymore so i'm not concerned about abusing them. depression sucks. /exit stage left