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Hello who dat friends. Just venting here for a moment.
Had my latest emergency surgeon visit today. This afternoon.
After tumors taken out of my head, degenerative eye disease and now multiple more cuts on my eyes I am worn out. Waaa. I know. I’d like to consider myself a very strong man, but I have found something that brings me to my knees and for the first time in my life I’ve conceded defeat.
Intracranial pressure. Thru all of my plethora of neck up issues over the years I’ve been very fortunate to not have met this foe until recently. I’ve tried so damn hard to be strong and beat this too, but I can’t. It’s like having your head in a vice and just keeps getting tighter and tighter. Started bleeding profusely out of my eye today and that did not bother me one bit, heck I was kept awake for a transplant back in the day where they used a little saw on my eyeball. No worries. Cupcake stuff like the Ohio State schedule.
Then the pressure. Called the wife, who obviously knows me, told her I loved her and to please pray for me, this pain is so strong it renders me unable to speak (and people in my life know I love to speak). I am already on 13 meds due to this and don’t know how much more I can take, literally and figuratively. It’s so severe I live in fear even when it’s not hitting, waiting for the moment it will hit again. For any who believe in such, please lift a prayer for me as I’m losing this fight. I’m worn down.
Attached is a picture of my meds most of which correlate to this eye stuff. I’m big, I’m strong, and I’ve found not only my equal but my superior. I know this is a sad post, just please I’m asking for prayers. Need some reprieve.
Had my latest emergency surgeon visit today. This afternoon.
After tumors taken out of my head, degenerative eye disease and now multiple more cuts on my eyes I am worn out. Waaa. I know. I’d like to consider myself a very strong man, but I have found something that brings me to my knees and for the first time in my life I’ve conceded defeat.
Intracranial pressure. Thru all of my plethora of neck up issues over the years I’ve been very fortunate to not have met this foe until recently. I’ve tried so damn hard to be strong and beat this too, but I can’t. It’s like having your head in a vice and just keeps getting tighter and tighter. Started bleeding profusely out of my eye today and that did not bother me one bit, heck I was kept awake for a transplant back in the day where they used a little saw on my eyeball. No worries. Cupcake stuff like the Ohio State schedule.
Then the pressure. Called the wife, who obviously knows me, told her I loved her and to please pray for me, this pain is so strong it renders me unable to speak (and people in my life know I love to speak). I am already on 13 meds due to this and don’t know how much more I can take, literally and figuratively. It’s so severe I live in fear even when it’s not hitting, waiting for the moment it will hit again. For any who believe in such, please lift a prayer for me as I’m losing this fight. I’m worn down.
Attached is a picture of my meds most of which correlate to this eye stuff. I’m big, I’m strong, and I’ve found not only my equal but my superior. I know this is a sad post, just please I’m asking for prayers. Need some reprieve.