I went to Tijuana a couple weeks ago to do 5-MeO-DMT (2 Viewers)

[guidomerkinsrules]

Another way to describe it, you were high. You ingested a substance that disrupted your normal brain functions and you think the hallucinations you experienced are some sort of spiritual awakening.

... but you just were high.

You aren’t really in love, it’s just electrical impulses firing

 

[mjcouvi]

I also became interested in Chess, weird right?

 

[mjcouvi]

I mentioned I'm an alcoholic. I'll live with that forever.

 

[mjcouvi]

Have you had other experiences with psychedelic substances? Was there a curating process that the shaman went through with you to personalize or was it this specific chemical that you sought out for yourself?

This was my first experience.

 

[SystemShock]

You aren’t really in love, it’s just electrical impulses firing

"Love" is the term we use for a particular instance of brain activity, but that is a natural function of our brains, unlike ingesting some substance that disrupts normal brain function and thinking that you actually died and had some sort of spiritual awakening/rebirth.

To each their own, though.

 

[Scorpius the Allfather]

It was the wildest experience of my life.

If you don't know, 5-MeO-DMT is derived from the venom of the Bufo alvarius toad. It's squeezed out of the glands onto glass, dried, then smoked. It’s illegal in the United States.

A shaman administered it, a 40-50 year old Mexican woman with tattoos and a trendy half-shaved head. I was outside on the grass mid-morning, the Pacific ocean in the distance at the bottom of the hill.

Moments after I inhaled the smoke I died a completely all-encompassing terrifying death, as I screamed real blood curdling screams. I was sure I was dying, but that lasted only about 10 seconds.

I was reborn into complete bliss. I suppose it was something akin to heaven, the absolute peace I felt, and what I did next I didn't think was really possible.

I could not stop staring at the sun. I wasn't imagining looking at it, not hallucinating, I was just staring at it, fully taking every bit of it into me, unblinking, for some time. The Shaman tried to get me to close my eyes, but I couldn't, I wouldn’t because it was too pure and divine what I was seeing.

The sun was connecting with me in a profound way and I would not have taken my eyes off of it for anything, even if I knew it would blind me. It was the most significant experience of my life. It was pure joy like I cannot put into words. It was a feeling of not only being in the presence of godliness, but feeling like I had the peace and understanding of god within myself, whatever that may be.

When it wore off the sun became too bright and I could no longer look at it. Everything I read tells me that I should have done significant damage to my eyes, but nothing, my eyes are fine after looking directly into the sun for at least five minutes straight without blinking.

The drug altered my physical state in some way that prevented my retinas from being damaged, I don't know how else I could have found such pleasure in something that would be extremely uncomfortable at any other time. I’m honestly very confused about how I was able to endure such direct sun into my eyes for a prolonged time, and I’m sure that what I felt was a divine experience, induced by divine chemicals.

The first thing I said to the Shaman when I felt like speaking again: "I became one with the sun" -- and that really is how it felt in those minutes. I can still recall the feeling, I was conscious through it all, and will remember it forever, even though I can't feel the complete pureness I felt in that moment any longer. It’s completely an experience and feeling that can’t be conveyed with language.

If you ever get the chance I'd encourage you to engage in this kind of experience. There's too much to say about it to fit neatly into a post, but if you'd like to know more details I'll do my best to answer.

I was on liberty bell shrooms and watching Bless The Child. At the end, it really felt like i was looking at the light of God. In that moment, I felt divinity, or it at least felt like it. Before that, I could feel my soul pulsing through the pores of my skin. Those were awesome shrooms.

 

[Scorpius the Allfather]

Well, if I became one with the Sun God, I expect I wouldn't care what others thought either.

Oh snap! Okay, there's someone I know(friend of my older brother) that had a drug problem at one point. I wasn't friends with him at the time. My brother told me that his friend "Larry" once claimed that he was the son of Ra and it was his destiny to open the buried chamber from underneath the sphinx and that it contained all the knowledge of the universe and would usher us into the 4th or 5th dimension.

 

[Sailorsaint]

Oh snap! Okay, there's someone I know(friend of my older brother) that had a drug problem at one point. I wasn't friends with him at the time. My brother told me that his friend "Larry" once claimed that he was the son of Ra and it was his destiny to open the buried chamber from underneath the sphinx and that it contained all the knowledge of the universe and would usher us into the 4th or 5th dimension.

 

[longtime lurker]

Very cool. I was just down in Chula Vista and you just about can see TJ from there, if your hotel is high enough. congrats on your trip. Peace and Whodat

 

[Madmarsha]

Right? He just left us hanging.

 

[Bleu Raeder]

Carlos Castaneda would like to have a word with you.

 

[Brad Mojo]

Another way to describe it, you were high. You ingested a substance that disrupted your normal brain functions and you think the hallucinations you experienced are some sort of spiritual awakening.

... but you just were high.

Buzzkill.

 

[whodatbe]

Reading that felt like I was reading a passage from a novel. Thanks for sharing MJ. Do you feel like this has helped with the alcoholism?

 

[mjcouvi]

Reading that felt like I was reading a passage from a novel. Thanks for sharing MJ. Do you feel like this has helped with the alcoholism?

Yes

 

[mjcouvi]

Reading that felt like I was reading a passage from a novel. Thanks for sharing MJ. Do you feel like this has helped with the alcoholism?

That means a lot to me. It did help. I love writing so thank you so much.