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To you as well.

I was never very religious, so NA wasn’t really for me.

I was told by a 28 year recovering addict “you have to choose to have things in your life you want. If you let the drugs make the decisions, you will be choosing the consequences.” Those consequences for me were losing everything I hold dear, so choosing never to touch it again was my only real choice. I know I am not alone in having to make this choice but for me it was what got me through- if I fall down I will lose it all.

My road to sobriety was not nearly as bumpy as some. My life and my story are not like most people.

However the perspective I have gained by being on the bottom of society shapes me to this day. In my opinion, unless you have ever been there you can’t fully understand the pain and self loathing that comes with substance abuse. It is enough to make you want to end it.

I was lucky enough to have the resources (read- family) to see me through. Most aren’t as lucky- either they have no one, or tend to be in abusive or co-dependent relationships.

I have sponsored a few of my coworkers and employees, no matter the method they choose to get sober. One tried Antabuse and the another NA. One was successful and one is no longer with us. It doesn’t matter which one worked and which one didn’t because it is the person’s support system and love from it that is the only constant, in lifelong pursuit of progressing sobriety- in my opinion of course.

That is why i feel it is paramount to talk to anyone who you care about that might be hurting and let them know you care and will listen and be there when they need it- no questions asked. Just knowing someone gives a sheet is enough sometimes to give a person enough hope to go on one more day.
 

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I've had the hardest fight with prescription pills for 20+ years off and on, but hardcore the last 8 years or so. At one point I would take 320mg of oxy and 600mg of hydrocodone a day. I've detoxed myself so many times I can't even count but never learned from it, the disease of addiction makes us forget. The core of our disease is self-centeredness, we also are under the illusion that we are not hurting anyone else, that if people would mind their own business everything would be better. A lot of us are "functioning addicts", we have jobs, houses, cars, families and provide. These are all things we haven't lost "YET". We are no different from the drug addict living on the streets, we just haven't gotten there yet.
Fitting Just For Today on my 1 year anniversary


Just For Today
December 30, 2015

Action and Prayer

Page 380

"...growth is not the result of wishing but of action and prayer."

Basic Text, p.37

Sometimes it seems as if our recovery is growing much too slowly. We struggle with the steps; we wrestle with the same problems; we labor under the same uncomfortable feelings day after day. We wish that recovery would move a little faster so we could find some comfort!

Wishing doesn't work in recovery; this isn't a program of magic. If wishes cured addiction, we all would have been well long ago! What does give us relief in recovery is action and prayer.

Narcotics Anonymous has worked for so many addicts because it is a carefully designed program of action and prayer. The actions we undertake in each of the steps bring more and more recovery to each area of our lives. And prayer keeps us connected to our Higher Power. Together, action and prayer keep us well-grounded in recovery.

Just for Today: My recovery is too precious to just wish about it. Today is a good day for action and prayer.

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Well, one day at a time for 731 days has brought me to my 2 year clean date. I got to thank my family and friends. I also gotta give a shout out to you guys in this thread and on this site who have given supportive comments, shared your stories and been a source of knowledge and laughter. Keep being awesome!!
Congrats man!!

I got 3 years on 12/30/17
Today I celebrate 4 years clean, the post I wrote today all the way to this thread with poster who show support are priceless in my recovery. Thank you guys!
Just looking back, from my first post with somewhere around 60 days clean to now over 5 years. It’s great to be alive, there so much more to live for.
 
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Just looking back, from my first post with somewhere around 60 days clean to now over 5 years. It’s great to be alive, there so much more to love for.

Congratulations man.

I have been on percs for a couple years now. I dont think I am addicted, but I definitely have physical dependency at this point
 

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Congratulations man.

I have been on percs for a couple years now. I dont think I am addicted, but I definitely have physical dependency at this point
For me, honestly, prescription pain killers are worse than anything I have dealt with in my years of addiction. It can take up to a year, if not longer for your body and mind to get back to normal once you quit. The physical dependency will cause the little voice in my head to start talking sheet. Telling me to get more so I don’t feel sick.
 

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For me, honestly, prescription pain killers are worse than anything I have dealt with in my years of addiction. It can take up to a year, if not longer for your body and mind to get back to normal once you quit. The physical dependency will cause the little voice in my head to start talking shirt. Telling me to get more so I don’t feel sick.

ugh....did they give you anything to help? I have heard that gabopentin can.

On days where I am off and do nothing I try not to take any because the pain is at a level I can deal with, but come evening time the anxiety, headaches, and sweating starts and daddy needs his little helper

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No addictions here. There were some years in the past, I might have had a bit too much whiskey on the weekend. I have however lived with an addict. My first wife, and her legally prescribed pain medication. Which eventually killed her. Probably the wrong kind of attitude to have here, but I don't have much patience for someone with a damaging addiction. I will help support someone in many ways if I can, if they are looking for help, but my personal experience with it makes me impatient and cynical.
 

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Hoping not to make light of this thread, but I was addicted to coffee once. If I didn't have it, I would get a wicket headache. I went cold turkey for a while which seemed to break the addiction, but then when i switched work they had one of those fancy fresh grinder machines and you just had to push a button and put a cup underneath to get your fix. I started chipping again, but limited myself to one or two cups a day. I had tossed my machine at home, so didn't have any on weekends and felt OK. When COVID-19 hit and they closed down businesses here, I was cold turkey again. Eventually I caved and got a carafe. Still I think I'm limited myself OK. I make about a half pot and drink it over 2-3 days.
 

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I don't think it makes light. You're talking about physical dependency and I have been exactly there with coffee myself. I was able to fix it just by tapering. When the doctors told me alcohol was killing me but that it wasn't safe for me to go cold turkey I tried to taper alcohol. I tried but my body wasn't having it. The other element for those of us who have taken our lives to ruin is the mental obsession. Imagine giving up coffee but thinking about it all day every day. I gave up alcohol for periods of time - sometimes months. But the obsession I had with it before I decided to give it up for good was just as bad. I was miserable. Its the hardest thing to explain to anyone how you know something is holding you back, killing you, that you may not even be enjoying it anymore and yet you cannot or will not stop.

But physical dependency is nothing nice in itself. That is more what my addiction with xanax was. When I was quiting, I no longer wanted it anymore but every three minutes I had a panic attack where I was certain I was dying. None of these things are fun.
 

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thanks guys...although it's bittersweet as i found out that another old friend passed away on Friday from a heroin overdose...it wasn't all that shocking to hear, to be honest...still sad...
 

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thanks guys...although it's bittersweet as i found out that another old friend passed away on Friday from a heroin overdose...it wasn't all that shocking to hear, to be honest...still sad...

pop I have had so many I’ve lost count. About five of them were close friends. Those of us who avoided that one are very lucky indeed.
 

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pop I have had so many I’ve lost count. About five of them were close friends. Those of us who avoided that one are very lucky indeed.

same here...a dozen people from my old neighborhood are gone, some of them i was closer to than others...this guy was a good friend for most of my childhood and into my 20s...i haven't seen him in years but i know he was always on that edge...i think he was a good dude at the core but he was probably broken in ways that i will never understand
 

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