Welp. It's time (2 Viewers)

[David Robbins]

I wasn't sure if I wanted to make this thread or not. But since i view SR as part of my family I decided to. I know my persona on here here is that will arse crazy guy drinking making a ruckus and "sorry for partying". But the truth is that has become me. After multiple conversations with my wife and therapist I have come to the conclusion alcohol has completely taken over my life. I no longer drink to relax or to be sociable I drink for 1 reason and 1 reason only and that is to get drunk.

This isn't a just started thing this has been a YEARS long thing. Case in point it has taken me 6 beers to stop the shaking tonight (yes I understand the irony) So tomorrow when Mrs BobE gets home I will be having her take me to rehab. At 4 am this morning on beer 16 or so I realized I just can't do this anymore. I have completely forgotten what it feels like to be normal and I want to fell ...well.....normal again.

I'm praying for you. You definitely need to get help. Trust in the Lord. Ask Him for help. He will see you through.

 

[antipop]

Outpatient never worked for me, but I wish you the best and hope it works for you.

same here. It was actually quite a disaster for me but it ultimately made me realize i probably needed to be 'put away'.

But it's definitely an important step and i wouldn't want to discourage BobE from trying.

Forgot to add while waiting the 2 weeks for the Outpatient center I will be trying AA (though Mary hates them for some reason) or another alternative.

i think AA is great for a while. You really need to be around other people that are going through the same thing. There was a point for me where i wasn't getting anything else from the meetings and i stopped going. It's touted as 'the only way' but that is wrong. I could give you a laundry list of the problems i have with AA but i still think it was important for the first few months of my sobriety. Definitely give it a shot and remain open minded about anything that will help you.

I'm praying for you. You definitely need to get help. Trust in the Lord. Ask Him for help. He will see you through.

i didn't ask anyone for help except for myself...and i am not giving credit to anyone but myself

 

[BroKV]

same here. It was actually quite a disaster for me but it ultimately made me realize i probably needed to be 'put away'.

But it's definitely an important step and i wouldn't want to discourage BobE from trying.




i think AA is great for a while.

Yeah, I needed to be in a place that was 24/7. I too tried AA but found NA to be a better fit for me. Today I go a handful of times a year but in the beginning it was 3,4,5 or more times a week.

 

[APSaintsFan]

Praying for you Bob!

 

[Optimus Prime]

Wish you all the best during this BobE

 

[BobE]

2 updates. Last night I attended my first AA meeting and I will just say it was..............interesting. Maybe it was just me but man my issues just seemed pale in comparison to the people I heard sharing. Some of the things people said they did damn near had me falling out of my chair. But I do plan on going back .

2ndly I went to my job yesterday to sign my FMLA papers. Originally me and the wife were concerned since I would not be getting paid and would have to pay for my own insurance while I would be out. We had a back up plan on just living off savings, loans and credit cards to get us by till I returned to work. Then I had the bombshell of bombshells dropped on me. My Office Manager told me that while yes I am out on FMLA the company will be marking me down as on sick days the entire time therefore I will be getting back and keeping my medical for the whole process. It was such a relief I actually felt like crying right in the middle of the office it was such a big worry lifted off of us.

Today is only day #6 of the rest of my life but damn I feel good.

 

[BroKV]

Don’t look at the differences in people’s stories, but instead grab the similarities. If you say to yourself “I don’t do that” or “I am not as bad as they are”, you’ll never be able to start your recovery. I can always take even the littlest part of someone’s story and relate.

 

[Tapxe]

2 updates. Last night I attended my first AA meeting and I will just say it was..............interesting. Maybe it was just me but man my issues just seemed pale in comparison to the people I heard sharing. Some of the things people said they did damn near had me falling out of my chair. But I do plan on going back .

Today is only day #6 of the rest of my life but damn I feel good.

It's good that you haven't reached lows that others have which shock you. I know you'll be successful in preventing getting to that point by making changes now.

May day #7 be even better.

 

[crosswatt]

2 updates. Last night I attended my first AA meeting and I will just say it was..............interesting. Maybe it was just me but man my issues just seemed pale in comparison to the people I heard sharing. Some of the things people said they did damn near had me falling out of my chair. But I do plan on going back .

2ndly I went to my job yesterday to sign my FMLA papers. Originally me and the wife were concerned since I would not be getting paid and would have to pay for my own insurance while I would be out. We had a back up plan on just living off savings, loans and credit cards to get us by till I returned to work. Then I had the bombshell of bombshells dropped on me. My Office Manager told me that while yes I am out on FMLA the company will be marking me down as on sick days the entire time therefore I will be getting back and keeping my medical for the whole process. It was such a relief I actually felt like crying right in the middle of the office it was such a big worry lifted off of us.

Today is only day #6 of the rest of my life but damn I feel good.

That's FANTASTIC, Bob! I'm so happy that part at least has been made a bit easier for you.

 

[DavidM]

Other people’s horror stories can be beneficial as cautionary tales. It can be helpful to be reminded that we’ve been spared a worse rock bottom, but it’s there waiting for us if we don’t get our stuff together.

Bob, that’s great news from your employer!

 

[superchuck500]

My Office Manager told me that while yes I am out on FMLA the company will be marking me down as on sick days the entire time therefore I will be getting back and keeping my medical for the whole process. It was such a relief I actually felt like crying right in the middle of the office it was such a big worry lifted off of us.

Today is only day #6 of the rest of my life but damn I feel good.

Man that's fantastic. One day at a time but that's great support.

 

[BobE]

Don’t look at the differences in people’s stories, but instead grab the similarities. If you say to yourself “I don’t do that” or “I am not as bad as they are”, you’ll never be able to start your recovery. I can always take even the littlest part of someone’s story and relate.

Don't get me wrong sometimes I type faster then my brain can translate or I don't want to make a book out of it. Out of the roughly 12 shares that were given at least 10 of them I could see a small part of myself. Now were they as a extreme? No. Could I relate or say yea I could see old me doing that? Absolutely. I mean that is why I plan to keep going back cause I can see me or relate in the happenings of others.

 

[Zack Lee]

FML papers? I thought that was what you had been doing before?

Never be sorry for partying BobE. Just turn the page. I am very happy to hear how you feel, that makes it easy to keep going. Until I felt good again, I wasn't even aware of just how bad I always felt.

 

[BroKV]

Don't get me wrong sometimes I type faster then my brain can translate or I don't want to make a book out of it. Out of the roughly 12 shares that were given at least 10 of them I could see a small part of myself. Now were they as a extreme? No. Could I relate or say yea I could see old me doing that? Absolutely. I mean that is why I plan to keep going back cause I can see me or relate in the happenings of others.

Good for you, have you shared yet? Give NA meetings a try as well, lots of AA members seem to gravitate to NA. It’s a different environment, IMO.

 

[BobE]

Good for you, have you shared yet? Give NA meetings a try as well, lots of AA members seem to gravitate to NA. It’s a different environment, IMO.

Honestly I did have not. That was my very 1st AA meeting so I was trying to get the feel of it if you will. Hell honestly I was more proud just actually walking through the door plus yesterday I had a 1.5 hour session with my therapist so I was already a little shared out if you will. I will likely take in a few meetings before I open up. Even though I am blunt on here IRL I am a very reserved person till I get the feel for the place/people.

I have heard about Alcoholics preferring NA or AA so eventually I will check it out. It may be something that happens a few months down the road but it is something I want to do.