Psychological Support (bipolar depression) (2 Viewers)

[SigFreudianSlip]

what i described above, is probably 1/3 - 1/2 of what bipolar 2 means to me (though closer to possibly 2/3 - 3/4).

i have experienced this all the time with my local friends. in fact, #1 out of 3 strictly stopped talking to me without notice, #2 out of 3 still contacts me when it makes sense to her, and #3 out of 3 is a friend i have given hell to. #3, she literally has had to deal with all of my worst days. there isn’t a lot of contact with her this year, and i totally understand every reason why. last year, she made me as happy as i could be, this year is very conservative. i honestly don’t know how she lasted this long as a great friend with my bs. she will never read this, but i owe her my life for some bad times. i will never disregard her, as she is one of my lifelong best friends.

there are also several posters on sr, i love hate. they would do anything for me as they would each other. most importantly, as we don’t always get along, i would do the same for all of them. best crowd of rejects (jk). i would ever want to be a part of.

hardest thing about an illness is keeping friendships. i understand 100% why these are broken, but makes it no less tough to deal with. does a friendship break affect normal people night, day, every thought between? i can’t imagine so, at least for every one. these are the feelings we have all the time.

Keep your head up zeetes. I mean that.
And to me, imo only, you’ll always find out who has your back when you are down. Not when you’re out front and on top. Life is a roller coaster, up down, middle etc. Enjoy the ride. And I stress I am no doctor, this is all just my LAYMAN opinion, I wish health happiness and wellness for you. You’re my SR friend. And I couldn’t care less how silly that sounds. It’s the truth.
Some of you have helped me thru a tough phase in my life this year and I’m forever grateful. This is a community, and I can tell you have a lot of people rooting for you zeetes. Keep your head up.

 

[zeetes]

so, i have started something similar to the above, i will explain if it works. i chose not to be on here, probably won’t very much for a few weeks either.

though, i have realized that i create barriers (“walls”), both good and bad, to deal with my problems. i have thought so much about this, after laughing off internally, at first i thought, unfortunately, ultimately eye-opening.

i am spending a lot of time trying to prepare myself mentally, and a little physically, to do what i can to not continually hurt anyone i love, with words, and that i, need, want to be back in my life.

 

[guidomerkinsrules]

so, i have started something similar to the above, i will explain if it works. i chose not to be on here, probably won’t very much for a few weeks either.

though, i have realized that i create barriers (“walls”), both good and bad, to deal with my problems. i have thought so much about this, after laughing off internally, at first i thought, unfortunately, ultimately eye-opening.

i am spending a lot of time trying to prepare myself mentally, and a little physically, to do what i can to not continually hurt anyone i love, with words, and that i, need, want to be back in my life.

I think you just need to move in with Hump

 

[SigFreudianSlip]

I think you just need to move in with Hump

Lol he’d be most welcome. Our home stays open.
(And not the first SR Saints fan to have stayed with me when they were going thru a rough patch) ? Quite obviously I won’t speak more on that.

And I’m not easily offended, also spend most of my time now rocking back and forth in extreme pain rendered speechless lol.

Zeetes I wish you well brother. Keep your head up.

 

[guidomerkinsrules]

(And not the first SR Saints fan to have stayed with me when they were going thru a rough patch) ? Quite obviously I won’t speak more on that.
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i think i just solved the Kardiac Kat mystery

 

[zeetes]

rant.

i have a few close friends, and several that are willing to help. all of them mean more to me than they know, and though a few have an idea of my feelings, i will never be able to express exactly my wife's affect on my well-being. without her mental confidence, i wouldn't be here today. without her, i still love her, my friends, and i love her dogs (mine too, i suppose).

lately, i have been depressed more than usual. within the last few weeks, my wife's, um, death anniversary?, was not a great day for me. this adds much to my recent instability. i wasn't exactly doing great before it either.

i don't exactly, but i know that i don't completely, hate life. it is more like a neutral zone waiting on a sign for my next thing to do. i dream of my wife nightly. the dreams are not perfect by some accounts. they are dreams of normal everyday life with her. i often wake up in a daze thinking our conversations were real. it has been messing with me for a few years. the waking up is what hurts. i still wouldn't trade these dreams and feelings for anything other than her resurrection.

i have not been in a stable mood for months. looking for assistance and advice to try and occupy my mind for bit thinking about her as frequently.

 

[guidomerkinsrules]

rant.

i have a few close friends, and several that are willing to help. all of them mean more to me than they know, and though a few have an idea of my feelings, i will never be able to express exactly my wife's affect on my well-being. without her mental confidence, i wouldn't be here today. without her, i still love her, my friends, and i love her dogs (mine too, i suppose).

lately, i have been depressed more than usual. within the last few weeks, my wife's, um, death anniversary?, was not a great day for me. this adds much to my recent instability. i wasn't exactly doing great before it either.

i don't exactly, but i know that i don't completely, hate life. it is more like a neutral zone waiting on a sign for my next thing to do. i dream of my wife nightly. the dreams are not perfect by some accounts. they are dreams of normal everyday life with her. i often wake up in a daze thinking our conversations were real. it has been messing with me for a few years. the waking up is what hurts. i still wouldn't trade these dreams and feelings for anything other than her resurrection.

i have not been in a stable mood for months. looking for assistance and advice to try and occupy my mind for bit thinking about her as frequently.

Asking what seems like an obvious question, but are you sure dreaming of your wife is tied to your depression?
Obviously it’s tied to sadness, and that’s going to be part of it
But missing your wife is to be expected

As far as distractions maybe go take some community classes
Painting or ceramics or woodworking or something?

Hang in there man, we love you

 

[crosswatt]

rant.

i have a few close friends, and several that are willing to help. all of them mean more to me than they know, and though a few have an idea of my feelings, i will never be able to express exactly my wife's affect on my well-being. without her mental confidence, i wouldn't be here today. without her, i still love her, my friends, and i love her dogs (mine too, i suppose).

lately, i have been depressed more than usual. within the last few weeks, my wife's, um, death anniversary?, was not a great day for me. this adds much to my recent instability. i wasn't exactly doing great before it either.

i don't exactly, but i know that i don't completely, hate life. it is more like a neutral zone waiting on a sign for my next thing to do. i dream of my wife nightly. the dreams are not perfect by some accounts. they are dreams of normal everyday life with her. i often wake up in a daze thinking our conversations were real. it has been messing with me for a few years. the waking up is what hurts. i still wouldn't trade these dreams and feelings for anything other than her resurrection.

i have not been in a stable mood for months. looking for assistance and advice to try and occupy my mind for bit thinking about her as frequently.

Start watching Golden Girls reruns more. ?

On a more serious note, I don't have the knowledge or experience to give any sound advice, so take this worth a grain of salt, but my gut feeling would be that you need a project of some sort.

Something that would have been special to her. Like volunteering at a charity that was something she cared about. Something tangible like building or fixing something for someone or a group of someone's that were close to her heart maybe? Or create some type or art that makes you think of her?

Just something to help your subconscious know that your conscious mind isn't going to forget her. And just thinking out loud before going to bed really. And didn't want to do so without giving at least some acknowledgement to a friend. You're very cared about here. Don't ever doubt that. Whatever else comes and goes, just know that you matter to me and to many others here.

 

[superchuck500]

zeetes - losing your wife, your life partner has to be one of the most difficult things a person can go through. It’s awful and I’m so sorry you’re struggling. Like you said, there’s going to be a ‘next thing’, you will get there.

Others have been there - and they made it through it. I think that a support group would be really beneficial, share with others in the same fight. And seeing a professional might open paths of thinking that you hadn’t considered, it’s not weak to use those resources.

It seems to me that with these kinds of deeply intense challenges, you have go move forward right through the middle. It’s impossible to out-flank around the edges.

 

[pal_treaux]

serious question.

a person i know is bipolar (“2” and manic depression), sees a therapist and psychiatrist to treat bipolar/ manic depression. that person is not close to their family and has alienated most of their friends. when having a “manic” moment, doesn’t really know who to turn to for advice and to just talk, which usually happens outside a reasonable window of time, scheduled, to see professional help.

advice? keep in mind, these manic episodes can be happy or negative, but can just as quickly turn into the other. very solidarity inclined person to begin with.

also, a few friends this person has confided in, they have driven away by, well, being bipolar. the few other friends, this person isn’t comfortable talking about issues with. it is kind of a rock and a hard-place situation.

recently, not having researched prior, they made the mistake of reading about such diagnoses. they can’t argue with the symptoms and understand the diagnosis. they also made the mistake of reading into whether or not it can be cured, which, as of today, is no. that hasn’t been a positive trying to process.

i am trying very hard to help, but am running out of options (ways to try and help). i don’t think they are suicidal, but i am also trying to prevent that. there is a lot of positive in their life, but that isn’t how they see or feel about it.

anything, thanks!

Tell them to enjoy the mania and dont take pills, their friends are more f’d up anyway by acting normal, ur friend is just the one who sees it and has deal w more emotional bs

 

[DaveXA]

zeetes, thank you for starting this thread. While I've never been diagnosed with bipolar, I've experienced bouts of depression from time to time. I've always managed to work through it, but I've seen the carnage bipolar can leave in it's wake. My mom has been through it and my grandmother had it in a bad way.

In both my wife and my families, we've had relatives commit suicide. It was shocking for us and it's something I think a good bit about. I find myself wondering about how my kids will deal with adversity as they become adults. With the history in our extended family, it wouldn't surprise me if one of them end up with mental illness. So far so good, but you never know sometimes.

I wish you all the best and hope you find a regimen that works for your situation.

serious question.

a person i know is bipolar (“2” and manic depression), sees a therapist and psychiatrist to treat bipolar/ manic depression. that person is not close to their family and has alienated most of their friends. when having a “manic” moment, doesn’t really know who to turn to for advice and to just talk, which usually happens outside a reasonable window of time, scheduled, to see professional help.

advice? keep in mind, these manic episodes can be happy or negative, but can just as quickly turn into the other. very solidarity inclined person to begin with.

also, a few friends this person has confided in, they have driven away by, well, being bipolar. the few other friends, this person isn’t comfortable talking about issues with. it is kind of a rock and a hard-place situation.

recently, not having researched prior, they made the mistake of reading about such diagnoses. they can’t argue with the symptoms and understand the diagnosis. they also made the mistake of reading into whether or not it can be cured, which, as of today, is no. that hasn’t been a positive trying to process.

i am trying very hard to help, but am running out of options (ways to try and help). i don’t think they are suicidal, but i am also trying to prevent that. there is a lot of positive in their life, but that isn’t how they see or feel about it.

anything, thanks!

 

[zeetes]

after a few days of avoiding this thread, i do feel a lot better.

biggest positive is that i will be starting a new job, locally, in the next 6 weeks and with maybe twice a year travel.

currently, weekly travel really bothers me because i am always in a place i don't want to be, with people i don't know. i know it is a big reason why i have gained almost 50 pounds in over a year. i don't excercise like i used to and have no control over my diet anymore. i go to client, head to hotel, usually eat a lot in concierge room, go to bar drink too much (even for me).

i have a psychiatrist appointment later this week. i am actually looking forward to it.

thank you for the support guys

 

[Madmarsha]

Very much thinking of you, zeetes.

 

[Taurus]

Hang in there, man.

If it's an option, one thing that helped my daughter was a long stay as an inpatient for med evals.
Tweak the prescription and see what it does, at a facility with 24/7 staff to monitor you and therapists available all day.

 

[SharonT]

Don't mix meds and alcohol. That's dangerous, and if you kill too many brain cells, you may wind up like



Plus, it scares me when I log on and see you PUI.